this  thing is fucking stupid, no one ever reads this anyways.

LATEERRR

today i found out that my lupus is systemic.

i  think my lupus is acting up...
i need to make a doctor's appointment.
and buy more sunblock.

i  might be playing a show with Aubrey Debauchery this summer?

i want someone to play chess with. 

 i'm waiting to go to work.
i'm broke. i hope i can get my paycheck today.
things have been sub par lately and perhaps the blame lies on myself.
i hate it when the keys on the keyboard stick.
i also hate being broke.

weird how time flies..
it's already near th end of march.
then comes April showers, and May brings flowers.
little grade school reference right there for ya.
anyways,
march: it's been real. sxsw was a fucking blast and i made a really awesome new friend.
Nick left for Paris, which is pretty fucking rad, but left me in a weird position back here in Austin. 
ex boyfriend shit. it was weird.
definitely an intense past couple weeks. 
and within the next couple weeks, I will be moving out of this house and staying with Nick until the apartment that Rose, Mikey and I signed up for is ready for us to move into. but we really have no idea when that'll be. 
the lady said maybe April.
April:
hopefully move into an awesome new apartment with one of my closest friends and a good buddy of ours
I turn 20 this year
May:
pass all my classes with good grades
plan trip to Korea to see my family, leave sometime in June perhaps. maybe find a job.

i hope shit works out

i cannot fucking stand living in this house.
what's right about someone who can't even feel comfortable in their own space?
i don't think i've ever felt this degree of awkwardness and anxiety at the same time.
it's enough to make someone throw up.
UUGGGHHHHH

a friend of mine just died last night.

je suis triste que mon chou parte.